Last night was quite interesting.... and a bit fun too. The common room is still quite full, mostly 5th-7th years though. Trying to finish the mass amount of work we all had, so this weekend would be mostly full. That's when my arm started burning. It actually really hurt, felt like someone was holding a hot cauldron to my forearm. I looked and there my mark was burning dark. I knew of course what this meant but had no idea of how to get there, I couldn't just apparate there, you can't apparate out of hogwarts. Andrew found me, and as much as I hate him I spoke normally to him. I haven't forgiven him, nor do I think I will EVER. Anyhow, he had a plan and a way out of here, so naturally I followed. He went through some passages and ended up in the cellar of the sweets shop in hogsmead. So we apparated there in the basement. We were the last to arrive, and the other death eaters were there, my father wasn't there though as far as I know (I couldn't see anyones faces), which made me wonder a bit where he was. I stayed close to Andrew, as he had been at this much longer than I. We paid respects to the dark lord before joining the circle. We looked out of place, wearing just our school uniforms, but we couldn't help it, if we were seen leaving the school in death eater uniforms, there would be quetions that would arrise. The dark lord talked to traitors, and he then asked me directly what has been happening at school. I told him nothing that I have noticed, and I am working on completeing my mission. He moved on talking to others. A few I knew and was somewhat surprised to see them. The dark lord has a raid planned in hogsmead on the 13th of this month and wants Andrew and I to be there. I don't know how we will manage to sneak out and come back during which time a raid occuring in hogsmead. Afterwards, we conversated, and I spoke to the dark lord about my mission, careful of what I said. He said he expects me to complete my mission soon, and I told him I would, but wanted to be cautious so I could stay at hogwarts to serve him. I bowed out, and went to Andrew, we left while several other death eaters were talking among each other. We were to meet in hogsmeade on the 13th.... the day of our visit now that I think about it.... it's at night, but, still, I'm rather worried that I might be caught. All right I need to go, Ryan is bothering me about telling him what happened last night.

Good day.

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My arm has been tingling. No idea why, but I'm not the only one who has noticed. Andrew came up to me and asked if I felt it. I said I did, naturally, but I still dislike Andrew a lot for what he did to me 4th year. Augh, I hold grudges, what can I say? I'm a brilliant liar, I've gotten pretty good at blocking my mind out too. So no one can see I'm lying, which works for me. Of course, I still need to work with the more powerful witches and wizards. Bellatrix for instance, no way I could fool her, or the dark lord. I don't know if anyone can do that. He's so powerful. I'm so pleased I'm working for such a great, powerful and gracious lord. I couldn't ask anything more. I can't wait to do something really great for him, something that will show him I can handle his missions. My father is a chicken, he wants out, but hasn't expressed it during meetings. Which is wise of him, it would most certainly mean his death. As much as I love my father, I think it is one of his dumbest ideas, leaving the dark lord. It's a life commitment, many are lucky are in Azkaban, or they too would be dead.

I'm so exhausted, I really need to sleep I think. Goodnight then.

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Well, I've been in a strangely good mood today. I don't know why. Perhaps because I've had so much fun. Who knows. I've met a lot of new people, which is strange. I'm starting to feel like a I belong to something, which is definitly new. All the people at the meeting are all really great, and worthy followers of the dark lord, of course many of them leave soon after the real work begins, for us when we get out of hogwarts. I wouldn't leave. Unless... maybe if I was ordered to kill my sister or family. I could never. Even though my sister, is in Gryffindor and totally different, we've been together for so long, and she's been like my other half, like, the other part of my mind. I wouldn't let any of them touch her or my family. I'd die for them before I died for the dark lord.

Anyway! Classes today were actually fun. Strangely enough. We did a lot of fun things, and this one kid who I've noticed is really cute really tried to get my attention today. Needless to say the girl who was sitting next to him didn't look happy, but that's what makes me happy, seeing other people hateful and jealous. I'm just a sadist I suppose. One of my more enjoyable traits.

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Lessons are already boring me. I had a meeting with others today though, very secret. It was place in a room that was really small, and the 6 of us had trouble fitting comfotably. I didn't know many of us were here. I guess I was wrong. Of course, Ryan isn't officially one yet, he is helping me right now, though against my wishes. We have a plan, the next meeting I said is on the quidditch field. It's open there. We can fit.

Lessons were boring though. It was normal. I had potions today, and that was fun. I enjoyed watching Josh get mocked by Snape. It was rather enjoyable actually. He is horrible at potions though, I don't know how he managed to scrape a grade for NEWT potions...

Ryan wants me to go and get something to eat with him. So I guess, I'm off. Bye.

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I can't go to bed... I'm lying in the dormitory, Ryan is snoozing in the arm chair, he tried to stay up with me, but he was tired. I'm not though. Tomorrow is the start of the term. Lucky me. LOL I've had the worst headache for a while now. I think stress. It's raining right now, pretty hard from what I can hear too. Aingeal seems upset with me though I have no idea what about.... I can only hope it's not what I've been stressing over. We have to be really discreet about this, which is what I'm worried about. Someone finding out. Ryan and I will both be expelled, for sure.

I think I finally have a plan worked out though. Quidditch teams are wonderful. Especially when you have such a close relationship with the captain, haha.

I'm excited for quidditch to begin again.

Oo, owl.... at a really late time at night... LOL it's from Mum. I forgot a book. Genius. She's like

Serenity,
Every year now is it? Have a good term.
Love,
Mum

It has been every year, except first year! I didn't forget anything my first year. Ryan just woke up, well, not really just joking. He opened his eyes and said "Serenity, we're late" and I said "for what?" and he kind of mumbled off. lol. He's so sweet.

Anyway, I'm going. Goodnight. I need to wake up Ryan and send him up to bed. He'll be sore in class tomorrow if I don't.

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I am back already. We finished the feast not too long ago, and now I sit in the common room.

This morning, Aingeal and I met up with Melody. We found a spot on the train while saying goodbye to Mum, we had said bye to Da before we left, he had to work for the "Ministry" today. So that was that... Melody had a lot of tell us of her trip to Romania. It sounded exciting. We found an empty compartment on the train and sat, a while later Josh came in, and after that Ryan. We had a lot of fun, and bought lots of snacks. It was just like it had always been, I forgot all the things on my mind and really enjoyed myself.

Ryan told me after the feast, he knew. I didn't even think about what he was talking about at first, and then he said his father worked with my father and I understood, his father and told him. Ryan said he wasn't letting me do it alone, and he would help me. He would join as well, so he could watch me, as he had promised. I still am unsure what to think about it. I guess it will be nice... not to have to go through it alone, to have someone to talk to. I just don't know. I feel so stressed out thinking about it now. I will remain loyal though to the dark lords wishes. I will not fail him.

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I was thinking how I want to approach my task when my sister, Aingeal walked in. We had a talk about Josh, she's worried, because he's been acting strange. I told her, she should see how he acts tomorrow, and of course she had more to say. I listened, but I knew she didn't really want advice, she just wanted someone to talk to. She's worried about father. Of course, she doesn't know about him and his job now. Of course he still goes to the ministry, every day. I probably shouldn't even write this here, if anyone sees it, he'll be in trouble, and so will our family. Since most wizards don't usually even try to use muggle things, and I shouldn't either for that matter, but I dunno... augh, forget it. Of course, he doesn't want to, but he has no choice but to do what he does. He did when he was younger, and now he has to continue to protect his family, I understand, I don't know if anyone else would.

I'm all packed, all my essays finished. I checked them over. Da has been avoiding me today, I think he's uneasy that I joined in too, but it was my choice, and I'm of age now, so I can do I wish, right? Atleast I don't have too hard of a job. Of course, I'm supposed to send owl to some others about what's going on at hogwarts, if I hear anything interesting that might concern us at all.

I almost told Aingeal today, I was so tempted, maybe she could even keep an ear open, but I decided against it. Knowing her, she would want me to stop, I don't think she realizes that I can't just stop. That would be impossible. I know what I've gotten myself into, I know that I can't quit ever. I've made a commitment, I have to do what they send me to do. I can't fail. I agree though, somewhat, that a lot of the muggles need to be killed off, as much as I am interested in the things that they have, I don't think it's fair that we have to hide out, and that's one thing that I agree with. Why should we have to hide away from the muggles, what could they possibly do to us? It makes me mad, how I have to keep away from the muggle world, I can't fly around at will, muggles will see me, I can't use magic in front of them, I have to go out of my way FOR them. I won't say anything more than that. Perhaps I think myself above muggles because I'm pureblood, I happen to be very proud of my blood line.

I'm happy to go back to hogwarts tomorrow though. It will be nice, final year.

That's all then.

Good night
Serenity

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Heh, I have done it. I have one, finally. I have earned my place among them. My Mum cried the whole time, begged me to rethink, to think of my father, how he hated working for him. The Dark Lord is back, I told her, If we don't follow him, then we will be killed by him. She knows it is true. More and more pureblood families are being recruited and if they don't join in, it's a terrible consequence. I joined on free will though. He will need me. My sister doesn't know yet, and I do not plan to tell her. I don't believe I will tell Ryan either, not yet anyway. He will know in good time.

My first mission is to recruit people within the school. Good timing I think. I leave tomorrow for London, there Aingeal and I will meet up with Melody, and perhaps Josh and Ryan. Knowing Josh he will be late, and make the train within seconds of it leaving.

It is my final year at hogwarts, and I have almost decided not to come. Of course my father told me that I had a mission to do for the Dark Lord there. I will go through with this, I will follow my lords will.

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